Wednesday, October 31, 2007

I feel like I'm "only performin" when...

I believe that people perform blatantly, but that many put on performances subconsciously as well. For example, if a person is trying to impress an individual of the opposite sex, he/she will imagine what the other person would be interested in or would find attractive, and the person trying to impress will act towards those things **READING. Everyone has hit on someone at least once before. Also, there are performances people do while on job interviews that are planned out ahead of time, but there are also performances that are expected based on the roles of the individuals in that specific setting. Many people put on performances to live up to other peoples expectations, or at least to appear to be living up to those expectations.
I wonder if we are ever free from performing. To an extent, I think that I am always performing, though sometimes I put on larger performances than others. Even around people I feel very comfortable with, I hold back to some extent. I don’t think that there is a person I know who I can 100% withold performing for and just be myself, whoever that may be. Even further, I feel that many people perform to and for themselves. We often try to trick ourselves into believing we are a certain type of person. For example, a person does not put aside enough time to do an assignment for class, but tells him/herself that he/she had no time because he/she was busy doing so many other things. This may be true, but we don’t remind ourselves that half of those things were done as a way to procrastinate and their getting done was not crucial or necessary at all. We then say that we were “soooo busy” so to not feel that we are failures, bad students, or incapable. SELF ESTEEM***

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